A Broken Friendship

Hey man. I'm back, never did post anything.
So yesterday was the last I would hear of Sam. I definitely would miss him, but I don't think he would ever understand me again. It's so bad that he had to go like this. This is so saddening! It's really letting go of what i once treasured most. I am not very sure if hurt him. Definitely there will be hurt because we didn't get it together. The feeling of lost, and he thought he was a material possession. That is so sad and pathetic. I never treated him as that! But I guess I wasn't even ready to give anything as it is. He couldn't even assure me that there was something about him that is should go for. I'm sure there is a guy that will be doing that. If we ever got together, it will definitely not work out because we're still young. I think if it was ever possible, it would be after he went into army and came out. He has a very nice personality, very innocent and pure. But yes, all has come down to this and yeah. God, have your way in me.
It was always so painful in the beginning. Like i cried when you decided to go. Bu no more Jesus, i just need to really focus on you. God told Sam not to do anything. I guess that's a way of telling me I'm  not ready either. This friendship is so broken but i pray God that you'll restore this friendship! I know you can, and you will. I'll do whatever you want. But please Jesus, don't ruin this friendship because it's really dear to me. I just pray God that you'll help Sam to wise up, so do I. Tell him Jesus, RIGHT NOW. That he is worthy of someone liking. I know sometimes people feel inferior but like, we're all humans aren't we. No matter how blessed I am. I believe you'll bless him in all other ways as well. I pray God that there will be a time of uplifting for him. Help him to heal as fast as possible and help him to move out of this misery as quick as possible. This is so bad, why must this happen. God it's so so so bad and saddening. My heart aches and cries out to you but I know you'll mend it somehow with your blood. I put all my trust in you. I will come back stringer and more determined to keep friendships together! I pray God that you'll guide him within this 2 months till we all meet again. Strangers or not, that is up to us to decide already. I pray from then on we will be close because there was a time for us to pour out our most inner thoughts. How could i only see the big picture now. God I'm dearly sorry for not letting go earlier. I know you have an awesome plan for us so I am just gonna trust in you all the way. Because I have already been pushed out of my comfort zone to feel anything. I don't know what i should do or go through anymore, I am just very thankful it ended earlier for Sam. He's a really good kid. I'll promise now that for the next 2 months at least, I will never fail to pray for him. I really honestly pray God that you will help him Lord, in his distress and pain,, To know that You are the Rock that he can lean on at this period of time, God I know you;ll help him so so so much. Please help him God. It'll be so painful without you. I am thankful for you in our lives. Let him blame me all He wants or  let him think that is it me who caused this crap to happen, But I pray God that he will not put himself down anymore. I pray that God, you let him see what a precious gem Sam is in your eyes. He is so precious and loved in your embrace. I know you'll be there for him, right Jesus and Holy spirit? I know you'll be there and here for us at the same time ministering to us. I know you're mighty hands will dawn upon us and let us walk out of this darkness into the bright light and shine so brightly like never before. Feelings is another game that we have to deal with at this point of time. I just ask Lord that You let feelings become neutral within us and let us re build this friendship on trust. Let him think what he wants, but let him feel that i really love him as a brother and a friend. I can;t wait for this 2 months to pass, knowing that all this will come to nothing for you are God that is above all our situations. I know I'll be okay with you with me! But Sam needs a lot from you. I pray you'll not stop your blessings from pouring put to him. POUR JESUS POUR. Fill him with so much love that he chooses to give up everything and start to love you. I want to believe that this will be a good experience for him to want to know you more, and to thirst for you only. I pray you will reveal yourself more clearly to him, to show him your presence so tangible in his life right now. Sam would never be the same again, and i know it's because he has changed for the better. I want to believe and be thankful that I was part of this change. I know God, you will reign in our lives and we praise you in every situation possible. Amen

To my dearest Sam Hoo.
I'm so sorry if i cause you immense hurt. I promise that you were never here and held on because i felt sorry for letting you go. You are too precious to be treated that way. I am so sorry I couldn't give my all in this. I was just feeding on your feelings, hoping that I would gain some by you assuring me. You're really up there and I am down below you know that? But i will never get a chance to tell you. But you're so so dear to me :( I am still very thankful you opened my eyes to many things in the world. I am feeling so regretful that I chose to let you go I LIKE YOU SAM. But i couldn't say it. It's so hard. But sometimes, I think liking is about letting go also. That's what they call love actually. But its so flawed in many sense. I might even love you Sam. Goodness. But this is it la, since I couldn't say anything. I think I would be pushing you to the limit if I made you go further by making me feel assure. I'm sure there would be another girl in your life that would suit you like you are. But don't hide your inner self anymore ok? Doesn't help if you appear happy like always! I guess that you'll open up one day to i have no idea who but i know you can =) I have so much faith and trust in you still. So i know like, our friendship will not be broken of this. It has eroded a lot, but i know there will still be a friendship there. I know so and I believe Jesus will keep it together! God knows how much we treasure so don't worry ok? I love you, Sam. Stay strong always and in God, you're loved Always~~

Faithful Unto Death

Revelation 2:8-11
"Do not fear of those things which you are about to suffer... Be faithful until death, and i will give you the crown of life"

WOW. This verse speaks a lot to me. Even though I am not worthy of things in life. God still saves me, How COOL is that huh. Well yeah, that's my God and I wish to boast about  him throughout the whole of my life. Its is actually hard to be faithful until death, it may actually seem impossible but IT IS NOT. Why? Because of one simple reason, we have Jesus. But I am really not worthy of what He does for me you know. And i realize one thing that is really blocking me from drawing close to him and that is self-infatuation. I care so much about my outer look that sometimes I choose to forget what God has done for me by giving me all the pretty stuff on me. It is really not rightful of me to claim any credit for it but I am just thankful for it. Especially when i choose to chug my problem one side giving excuses that because I need to focus. I should deal with it shouldn't I? Give me strength Jesus to walk this path. No matter how painful it is to me right now, I know I will reap the benefits of it someday, and God approves of that. So help me O Lord, you know my hearts deepest desires. Forgive me because I really do not want to do this anymore. I need to learn how to treasure the relationship with you more than anything in my life. Don't let anything in life cloud my vision of you. You know it's difficult Jesus but I am weak and you are strong. Help me know I can utilize the power in me Lord that I may conquer all this in Your Mighty name! Amen~

Now on to talking about my week. Well, one word, AWESOME. Because I had Jesus with me! And i choose to feel so. I have not been especially close with God because of what is happening around me but it is all my own fault. I am sorry Jesus :( please forgive me. I have sinned and i want to sincerely repent. Take me back into your courts where all sing of your praises. But what is the best thing is that, during the papers. Although i do not know how to do a certain number of sums and questions, God helped me write what i needed in the very last minute. I started to write really fast and the information just came to me suddenly. Although I didn't get to check for careless mistakes, I am sure that it will be ok. I have received His blessings so much that i might overflow! So i need to spread this blessing Jesus. Help me to think of names that I should invite to this camp. That they will be ready to accept you when the time comes. Help me to be sure of that name and not because of my own desire to pull someone back to Christ. It would be futile if this is so. I need your power to show me clearly dear Lord to ask the person you want me to. Tug at my heartstrings and i will choose to pluck up my courage to do it. So back to the topic, i think God has been really good to me throughout this exams and I pray that i would be mindful of Him like how He sees me through all this. Thank you once again for everything and I wouldn't have it otherwise.

Lord i also want to dedicate this to Karishma. She has been really heartbroken because of the rejection. Well, i know it is because your plans for her are yet to come to pass. So keep her hopeful Jesus, that you may light her way to life. The one that she has been yearning for and that you may bless her with the comfort to walk through this journey with you. I pray that she will not feel so awkward in service when with him so that she will be able to seek you out :) Stay with her really as my heart goes out to her. I pray that her blessings will be double-portioned because she is really in need of it now! Thank you for always blessing her! I really love her and i know you love her more than 10 times!

I pray for Amanda as well that she will be able to know that you will be with her through the last papers and that She will walk with you till the end of it. Help her to keep her mind focused on you before anything starts. I know she has faith in you and feels greatly for you so keep her on her toes and let her soak in your Mighty presence always :)

I also pray for Elisheba that she will stay close to you throughout this period because You love her as she is and do not want her to stray form you O Lord. She is a really cute  and sweet girl so I pray you will be with her all the way throughout her life that she may stay true to herself and you always :)

I pray for Jacey also (although my heart feels weird saying this but) that she will be able to overcome her circumstances and praise your name like everyone does. She is having her own struggles and I have not been exactly encouraging but whatever it is. Help me to control my emotions and take her step of faith to help her out. Like i always say to put aside my feelings and Let God, yes i shall do so. Thank you for her presence and i pray that in due time we will be close to you as one like how we used to before. But i just thank you for the work you have done in me that you may continue till all jealousy is gone. I can do this because your love is greatest of them all.

Lastly, Neo Shu Qi. I pray for this girl that she will turn back to you God. And let her come to know that church should be her priority always. I pray that throughout this holidays that is to come that she will not go astray with the fun you blessed her with but turn her eyes upon you once again O Lord. Thank you for bringing her into my life and i pray that she will hold onto you tightly and be faithful till death.

Thank you for my blessing my friends as well!!!!!! Because of you I believe they felt peace and serenity because you calm their nerves unknowingly. But when the time has come I pray that you will guide them into your Presence whether is it through me or someone special in their lives. I pray you will rise up Christians to do their work foe you Glory O God. Thank you for all that you have done!
I really love you Jesus for doing so many good things in my life and may i be allowed to praise you to eternity because only seeking you is the greatest comfort i will get in life on Earth. Call me to do your work and may i be prepared to work it hard for you till the day i see you again, and let be be faithful unto death as i focus on what is unseen and not seen as what is seen is temporary but what is unseen is eternal! Amen~

Through the stress and strain of life

My tread of faith may break,

The cable of God's faithfulness

No one can ever shake

-Anon

Letters of Recommendation for Jesus

YOLO. It's a Sunday morning and here I am once again! Nerve wrecking 24 hours to the start of my very first A level paper! OOOOOOOOOOOOO freaking out here. But let's put that aside for a while and turn our eyes upon Jesus.

"Six-Word Testimony"
So this is what the daily bread is talking about today! Thinking that we have constantly portray an image of Christ-likeness so others can see Him through us. Personally, I feel I haven;t been able to entirely do that. But that is my goal! And I believe if I choose to do so, God will use my to show His love to others.

'If you had six words to represent what Christ has done for you and what you can do for others, what would I say?' Hmmm, I'll say,

 "WALK BY FAITH, NOT BY SIGHT"

2 Corinthians 5:7

Why? Because well, I feel that the sight has done us a lot of injustice regarding our actions and feelings towards what we see here and do around us. Well, firstly, sight has brought me to do the worst mistake in my life which caused me so much hurt and pain, yet by faith,, God healed me. Secondly, seeing Jacey in this state makes me angsty, but by faith, yet again, I choose to believe we have to love our sisters and not cause them to stumble in their tracks towards God. SO if we choose to really forgo our earthly influence and then towards God's will for us, I believe life will be a much better place because God is with us and in us! 

"Therefore we do not lose heart.

Though  outwardly we are wasting away,

yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day

So fix our eyes on not what is seen,

but on what is unseen.

For what is seen is temporary,

but what is unseen is eternal."

2 Corinthians 4:16-18

So let us be nothing but only righteous and truthful towards God :) only then we will experience the eternal He has already reserved for us, if only we choose to live and yearn Him like never before! Let's all be LETTERS OF RECOMMENDATION for our Jesus today! =)

So back to my frantic mood, TOMORROW IS THE DAY!!!!!!!!!!

NERVOUS MAX> But well, after talking to God, I feel more reassured :)

In a way i keep thinking others may not have done as much, I confess. Sorry God :(

But it's also not a time to think I am dumb and there's no hope. WELL NOOOOOO, In God, All Christians ALWAYS find endless hope yes? I always wished this time round would just be a miracle for me but I think if only fix my eyes on the prize i will never get to enjoy the journey spent! Especially when God has been present at all times through these times i am alone. But forever with God :) Thank you God, Jesus and the Holy Spirit for always being there for me! i appreciate your help very much and i look forward to spending more time with you throughout the month and week and i pray that every time i panic or feel awkward i will know that i am prepared, not going to let it stumble me and know that you are my rock of foundation and as long as i turn my eyes and focus towards you, NOTHING SHOULD BRING ME DOWN :)

I love you Jesus!!!!!! Forgive me of my sins and i pray you will be with me and help me have a clear mind to do the paper and write correct answers as  much as possible :)

'Only God's ways is the Right way to go~'

Forsaken? NOT A CHANCE :)

BOOYA.

So its officially 3 days before the start of my first paper, and boy, it is nerve wrecking!
So much to do within so little time. I just need the ultimate help :/
But having said that, I want to thank God for helping experience grace so free this 3 weeks of preparation. God is REALLY with me, I can sense and I want to choose to believe He is there for me!
YAYYYYYYY, GOD IS THE BEST <3

Well, and so i was reading my materials one day and i came across this title of,
"Who is the Holy Spirit?"- I mean like I thought I knew, She was just a spirit of God. And yeah, thats about it. But after reading the material I came to realize many things about her that makes me want to acknowledge her as a friend, just like God planned it to.

John 15:12-16
'I have much more to say to you, more than you can bear. But when he, The Spirit of truth, come, he will guide you into all truth. He will not speak on his own; he will speak only what he hears, and he will tell you what is yet to come. He will glorify me because it is from me that he will receive what he will make known to you. All hat belongs to the Father is mine, That is why the Spirit will receive  from me what he will make known to you'

So Holy Spirit turns out to be friend of ours, Sent by our Daddy God to keep us company and guide our ways as we walk this journey on Earth. That's why we are never alone! because we have God, Jesus and the Holy spirit with us! I think what is most amazing is that living in this world is really a chore, but when we come to think about the things we can accomplish for God, its amazing  how the vision turns out to be. Well, I am starting to recognize that He can really show anybody things He want to. I just enjoy knowing He is there and all. really brings me comfort in time of stress like now.
So I just want to say THANK YOU HOLY SPIRIT!!! =) its like you have always been there for me, no matter how far I stray or how close I am. You are there. Sorry if I have hurt you in many ways unthinkable. But I promise, I will try my best to never do it again! Thank you for always guiding me in prayers and helping me in all ways possible, especially calming my nerves for now! Really thank  you! I just pray as the days past, we will grow close day by day and you can tell me more about Jesus and God and we can have little chats about what is happening in my life. Thank you that i can tell you everything so i have nothing to hide! I really love you as a friend and Thank God for you! Kudos to you!!

So throughout this week, i have been really really panicky about stuffs because i thought i would never be able to make it. so negativism starts to devour me. But then i talked to Asher! and told him,
"What if you reap what you sow, because i didn't study much, so i won't reap anything wouldn't I?"-THIS BY THE WAY MAKES PERFECT SENSE TO ME.

HOWEVER, Asher then said, "But you can think o fit this way, We sow seeds of sins EVERYDAY, so shouldn't we reap fruits of destruction and failure only??" Well then i would have been cursed and dead by now. *Pssssh
So what I am trying to say is, God's grace is so bountiful that even when you committed the worst of sins, when you repent, you can always turn back to Him with no qualms. How Amazing is our God huh. His grace is really more than enough, so i should just do my best and really really, leave it to God. Thank you for being there and giving me endless hope in Christ :)

So my prayer for this week is that I will fully trust in you that all will go well, because i have God and God only with me :)  Help me to lean again on you ad know that you are there!! JIAYOUUUUUU

'Though evil may surround us,

We need not fear defeat;

For when God fights the battle,

Our enemies retreat'

-Sper

LOVE WE CAN TRUST

Lamentations 3:22-26

'Because of God's great love we are not consumed, for his compassions never fail. They are new evry morning; great is your faithfulness. I say to myself, "The LORD is my portion; therefore I will wait for Him." It is good to wait quietly for the salvation of the LORD'

Thank you Jesus that we can have a new hope in you despite all the happenings. You bring us a fresh start every morning and letting us know that today will never be like tomorrow because we can expect new things from you. Your promise to never forsake us gives us the best assurance to life situations that we should always look  to you despite our circumstances.

Dear Jesus,

I am very stressed :( Only because i keep thinking i am dumb and cannot make it. Sometimes i feel high, but sometimes i feel low. Is there ever any remedy in this feeling i feel? I know there is, because there is You! A feeling ma pass to yesterday but new feelings grow today. And when we choose to thing about the grace that you give so free, we will only reap happy feelings and feel the sense of gratitude towards your never ending and never failing love. Can i really do this? i don't know. But God,  I REALLY WANT TO DO WELL.

 Really!!!! This is a chance i have given myself two years before i stepped in here and i hope i can fulfill it. I have fallen so badly i chose to pick up again with your strength on me and the help you gave to me. Please please please Father, help me please. i do not want to feel fear but i know that as long i have you. There will be grace and mercy so free :) its not because of the fame i will get God. Not to prove anything. But i really want to achieve something for myself. I am not sure if its selfish or not. But i pray You will hear my cry and don't turn away from me. Its only you i seek. Help me LORD, and help those around me. Thank you forgiving my of my sins as i repent  and may a new day bring new hope in you. 

Because God's Love never fails.

O Love that wilt not let me go

I rest my weary soul in thee;

I give Thee back my life I owe,

That in Thine ocean depths its flow

May richer, fuller be

- Matheson

All you need to know to be content is this; GOD IS GOOD

I AM BACK.
So this week has really been good to me in a way i was able to stay at home to study and all. Helped me slowed down in life a little. Well, i have been on the computer a few days now, trying to type out some paragraphs for gp, turns out to be really interesting! That is why i am here :)
2 MORE WEEKENDS TO A LEVELS~~~
Got to really raise the bar and start working like there is no tomorrow.
However, I've got to admit i have been neglecting Jesus in my life. How can i forget the goodness He has done for me. this week has been really good and its all thank to you Jesus!! THANK YOU GOD!!
My prayer for today is that for the next week i will draw closer to  you spiritually and spend more time with you. i wasted too much time on videos, i admit. SORRYYYYYYY =(
GIVE ME STRENGTH THIS WEEK ALMIGHTY ONE, THAT I MAY STAND STRING A MIDST THE HARDSHIPS SO THAT YOUR GRACE MAY BE GLORIFIED AT THE END OF THE DAY

"Harvest Day"- October 21st
This message about the basic principle of 'you reap what you sow'. however i have gained a new perspective to it. The question asks, "If He asked us to gather up the yield of our everyday choices over the past year. what would we have to show Him?"
My answer is, "nothing"- I guess this tells me i haven't been exactly doing enough for Jesus. i haven't successfully brought a soul into His Kingdom to be saved by His grace, the same one i experienced. Am i so selfish? The Nature of Sin- SELFISHNESS. Am i just not ready, or i don;t want to be ready? Hmmm, that's a question i have to ask myself. I believe growing in Christ is not only an intentional effort to read His words and follow His commandments. But it is also to be intentional to do His work and seek Salvation in others as well as the Sanctification of ourselves. Knowing that there are things i have to give up to pursue that Desire for God, am I willing to? As of now, i admit. I haven't been able to put it all down and say 'I am ready'.

Things of the world often pull at my heart,
But, Lord, help me see the end from the start;
Open my eyes to where my life's going,
What I will reap from all I've been sowing.- K. De Haan

Galatians 5;19-21
'The acts of the flesh are obvious; sexual immorality, impurity and debauchery; idolatry and witchcraft' hatred, discord, jealousy, fits of rage, selfish ambition, dissensions, factions and envy; drunkenness, orgies, and the like. I warn you, as i did before, that those who live like this will not inherit the kingdom of God'

It is actually very shocking to me that this is the case. Shows me how serious there offences are. But everyday, i do these. Hoe shameful of me. How am i supposed to approach God? And i am still living? It's a miracle i think. I mean if God has the ability to strike me dead, why hasn't He? And how can i bring myself to sin against Him despite knowing all that He as been through for His life is taking up our sins and turning it into love? I''m sorry Jesus for sinning against you. Help me not to sow discord towards my sister as it will only breed sin-envy and jealousy with many more after that. You have to help me to release all this n a form of unhurting way so that i may be able to reconcile both of us in the Name of Christ. Please Lord, I beg you to show me the way. NO MORE will i continue sowing discord I have sinned greatly and i ask you forgive me and remove all the bad feelings inside of me. I am sincere if you can fill me heart. Change me to something new, mold me and fill me with your love once again. I know it is never ending. Thank you Father for you have never forsaken me.

I am just waiting for you to show up in my life. Even if you seem distant, i believe all it takes is for me to walk towards you to close up that gap. Wait for me Daddy God!!! =)

Turn not aside, discouraged one;
Stir up your gift, pursue your goal;
In God's own time you'll see Him work;
He'll give you hope and lift your soul- D. D Haan

This gives me comfort in knowing God is there. Although i face the trouble of whether i can make it or not due to my results, i still want to really trust in God. Sometimes its really hard to believe without actually doing anything, you may just succeed. Get what i mean? like, you didn't study as hard, so you won't get anywhere. Makes me feel all demoralized. But then again, it is the same feeling that drives the motivation in me. I WILL NOT GIVE UP at thus  point. All i can do now is try my very best to study and then yes, when i say i will leave the rest to God , i will. And whatever the outcome maybe, i will just go on from there. Ready to receive and accept all there is to my life down the road ahead of me. God wont leave me in a lurch. I know i will have somewhere to go. Because i haven't fulfilled my purpose in life yet, the will that God has for, the reason i am still breathing on this Earth. So i pray God, show me my purpose. Is it cause you do not like someone with no goals? Or was no goals meant for you to do a work in me? Can ordinary people actually strive to become something? But ordinary is the extraordinary in Christ. Many people like Heidi baker were called down from their high positions to serve you then will you use me in the same way? I may not be able to achieve great things. but i aspire to, and i must admit that it is cause of the fame. Maybe that's the reason why i am not ready. When i am able to stop feeding my flesh of its hunger for fame and wealth, only then i will be ready. I want to start doing so and grow in your word so it will be easier along the way. Help me O' God. I know now i just have to study hard and really aim to achieve something i want to do, for the furtherance of  your kingdom. I do not want church to be somewhere i can go and play with. But i want to move into a higher level of understanding and closeness with you! To inspire people of God's love and shine in the darkness, lighting the way to Christ and  God. When will that time be? I don't know, but i know it'll come when unexpected. So i must be ready!! What matters most is I know, you will come Because You promised so =)

Thank you that i have always someone to turn to despite all my troubles. Allowing me to be my cheerful self always. I think its a blessing to express myself, the way i feel. So help me to treasure this gift. And also the way of writing so that i may glorify you in that time that comes.

When the world around you is crumbling, GOD is the Rock on which you can stand.

HIIIIIIII.

I AM BACK AFTER WHO KNOWS WHO LONGGGGGG.

And guess what i am feeling good :)

Many months have passed and i have learnt a lot in the process. 

How i wished i can turn back time but i know i cant, nevertheless. I am glad i am able to earn something so vivid that i will never have the same perspective again!

All i want to say is i THANK GOD! For never forsaking me in times of stress and trouble and never leaving me in thee lurch when help was desperately needed. So now officially i am changed! FOR JESUS. And from this day, i pray i will only seek to do His will and never letting anything else come in between God's love for me and those i love around me. Jesus you see this? I LOVE YOU VERY  MUCH AND AM  THANKFUL FOR ALL YOU HAVE DONE IN ME.

Sooooooo, Its October the 14th!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Officially another 3 weekends to A levels. time flew and i must say i only start to treasure school life now since everything has passed. I have basically lived these 2 years of my life with too much drama on the non-academic side. Pssssh~~

But the reason why i chose to come back is because its a Sunday morning! AND I AM NOT IN CHURCH :( For some reason i think i need to come and talk to God since i have been drifting in my opinion. I NEED TO FIND JESUS, WHERE ARE YOU. 

Anyway, back t my motive. i am here because i wished to talk about what i read in the daily bread today!

So the it quotes, "Whoever hears these sayings of Mine,and does them, i will liken him to a wise man who built his house on a rock"- Matthew 7:24

It talks about the importance of building our lives on the solid foundation of Obeying His Word. David McCasland says that 'Hearing God's Words is essential, but doing what He says is the key to weathering the storms in our lives. It's never too late to start building on THE ROCK'

THIS IS SO TRUE. I believe building our purpose on solid foundation like God's Word will never go wrong. In a sense sometimes we need to do things we might not like or favor  to the extent dislike, but we know it will benefit us in the ling run so we do so. i think its very important cause we really need these teachings to help us overcome circumstances in our lives. 'The Rock' represents something that will never falter in times of calamities in life situations. Well. of course everybody yearns to have that, passing of with Words of their own 'wisdom'. but at the end of the day, if i do a self reflection, only  those who truly choose to put your everything in building your foundation is Jesus, i say you will fall but always have the courage to return to your feet because God is always supporting you in all aspects you can never imagine. He cares about the little things we do! I admit that i am no where near that point, but my prayer is that one day i will reach that summit so that i know God is my God. He is real and worthy of only of praises and worships.

I pray i do not have to reach another low moments to experience God like how i did, but i pray it will serve as a reminder to me that God is always there. despite what may happen, i must ask for forgiveness, forgive and turn our eyes upon Jesus and be Awed by His Almighty Presence. 

With only a short time away from the major exams, i pray i will not give up and try only my very best in studying and leave the rest to God. and not think about anything else but His lovely presence and grace :)

praying for all my friends around me too! hope they will understand my purpose for not replying their messages :p

Emmanuel, God With Us <3